nic newling recalls his childhood , he remembers misleading highs and deep depressions where the only option he could see for himself was committing suicide .
the 28-year-old is using his story of loss and confusion - in which he moved between doctors and psychiatric wards and was fed various concoctions of prescriptive medication before finally being diagnosed with bipolar disorder - to raise awareness of mental illness .
mental health advocate nic newling struggled through the confusing highs and depressing lows of an undiagnosed bipolar disorder .